Last Monday

First of all, a Happy Valentine's Day to everyone! Hope everyone is feeling a warmth in heart and youth in spirit.

My day has been pretty quiet and uneventful. It's a bit chilly here today, and the weather for the remainder of the week promises temperatures in the 50s and some rain. Thanks to the wealth of technology available in today's world, this forecast was known to me for a few days, and I made the most of the weekend. Got some beach time, a sunset with dolphins, and the next morning's sunrise. Yesterday I spent some of the afternoon on the beach and, for the first time this year, went headlong into the water. It certainly wasn't warm but it wasn't overwhelmingly cold either. It felt great.

Right now I'm watching palm trees sway in the silver blue light of early evening, the sun having set only about 20 minutes ago. Beautiful scenery.

This will be my last Monday in San Diego for awhile. On Sunday, I will be hitting the road en route to eastern Connecticut.

When I set out for California, there were many factors. One was that I wanted to live in a new place on my own and broaden my horizons. More importantly, however, I set out to develop a career in liquor distribution, build wealth, and eventually find love. I wanted this decade to be better than the previous one, and to keep building that way for the remainder of my life. Turns out, I will be able to better achieve my goals by returning to New England.

This was not the case 12 months ago, but as we all know things change. While I was home for Christmas, I suddenly had more job interest than I had experienced for the previous year and a half. People were willing to talk to me and express how much I had to offer. I found that I had true love in my heart that could not be denied. And I also knew that it felt good to be close to my family. On Christmas morning, the thought of returning to the area was the furthest thing from my mind. But with each passing day, a myriad of events and signs pointed me in the right direction.

Upon returning to San Diego, the signs continued to present themselves. The job interest that came from my ongoing search all came from New England, there was no response in California. The economic prospectus (posted here in January) for San Diego was yet another indicator. I have continued to look for work, both temporary and full time out here to no avail. I don't have a job waiting for me back East, but I feel that I am destined to go there for my career to take off. So I have spent the past 6 weeks looking for someone to take over my lease. I had someone lined up a few weeks ago that fell through, but now everything is in place, so it's time to get the show back on the road.

I spent this weekend feeling liberation from stress and enjoying my surroundings. This is a wonderful place, and there is much more to explore. But there is not opportunity here for me now, and it would be foolish to persist in trying to create it when I have so much going for me elsewhere. I don't have a doubt in my mind about my path. Certainly I have nervousness, towards which I invoke the words of Martin Luther King, Jr: "Faith is taking the first step when you cannot see the entire staircase."

Coming here last year was the right decision. It has been difficult, but I feel dramatically strengthened for it. Now it is time to move on, and I am not only very excited but focused. Life sure is funny, because I never would have expected any of this, but everything feels right. If I had not come here, none of this would be taking place. Now it's time for the next step.

Listening:
"Destination" by Damn Arms, Ted & Francis remix.